Mermaid in Distress

It’s another day and I Feel Okay.

I  ain’t employed, but I smile anyway.

I ain’t that hungry, I can fast for day..

My house cost a fortune, but I live on the bus

I wish I had a boyfriend to give me free hugs.

But when I get the munchies, I may stay up late.


Blah… What else is there to do in this world besides work, eat, shit, and sleep??


Any fun?

Or just ass-busting and sud-soaping??

I want to dive in Lady Bird Lake and hopefully turn into a Mermaid.


#RIP big moe and Pimp C




What’s Yo Ism?

It’s so important to plan out the goals you have in mind and seriously put all emotion in it because Emotion= Energy in Motion.

Smile! It’s okay to smile!! It’ll be okay after awhile. Don’t let everyday struggles stress you, child.  Just know it’s okay to smile. And be content. Snap your fingers to the soul words that resonate within you. Breathe baby, breathe; deeply! In and out, in and out. Focus. ONLY. On. Your. Breathing. Watch… and observe yourself. You will notice the focus elevate your mood. I do this when I’m not in a happy place, mentally.

When anxiety creeps up my body and attacks like a virus attacking the host. It pains me and makes my heart so heavy, this thing they call anxiety.

 But, breathing exercises I feel, melt all the crust and disease caked up around the heart. It detoxes the overwhelmed body and overthinking brain. It is the solution to any kind of blockage that may occur within the chakras. Powerful, so powerful it is to breathe. How happy should I be? Elated! Overflowing with joy! I’m breathing!! I’m STILL ALIVE!!

I reminisce on a time or two where I could’ve died. Where breath, fresh and free, pure and live LIVING could have stopped running through me. That’s why I’m so happy to be breathing, today. RIGHT NOW! It feels so good.! So lively! LITERALLY!

Just vibing and listening to good music and being around good people is a luxury. One that I need to appreciate more. I have been practicing how to carry a lighter, pure heart. The ancient Egyptians in the afterlife weigh their heart and compare the weight of their heart to that of a Ma’at Feather. This signifies that we don’t carry any heavy burden on our hearts from past time.

I have to admit even that the sadness I have felt for so long is starting to subside. My love for me is growing every day. How Good it is!

Rediscovering the true beauty of life and nature thus far has been amazing. Thinking back to a time where I took that for granted. Depression, suicidal thoughts, anxiety, addiction, and a heavy heart clouded my vision. If I had to pin point a time in my life where I knew I needed to change was in an Isolated jail cell. Some say that’s too late to be a change in the world.


But, I wasn’t in the world in jail, I was under it. My mind would travel far and think and…..

Get side-tracked.

But, I will no longer get sidetracked. I am focused! I plan to keep practicing and crafting my holistic lifestyle. I will continue to challenge myself spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and physically!

In closing, I want to keep encouraging anyone reading this to STAY STRONG. STAY HAPPY. STAY POSITIVE! AND Ever growing in this transitional process. Use a daily journal as your go-to guide for accomplishing your goals. NO MATTER WHAT!













Positivity Continued

I am that I am

A beaming ball of light

Here to overflow the

Chaotic evils on the street.

To light up the darkness, at times you have to be that only light source.

When theres no flashlight to grab,

I am the flash with

A pure, natural light

An Ultra Shine

And a beautiful beam.

I love looking out and Up

And above and beyond

And below and deeper.

And inside me and outside me.

Tune my eyes to Align

So that I cam truly feel divine.


I love to write and re-write my affirmations. These are Affirmations I wrote in my journal 2 months ago exactly and have been reciting them in hopes I can manifest these feelings truly. Hope you enjoy and begin to Affirm some of these statements for yourself.

I am Love.

I am Light.

I am Beauty.

I am a reflection of my Sun.

I am an Orange Moon.

I am in tune.

I can do all that I believe in.

I can love

I can smile.

I can speak passionately and UN-apologetically.

Soundwave Adoration

Music has brought me happiness 

Once again, I can smile, because of the notes.

The vibrations of the soundwaves life my soul 20ft. from the ashes.

Rising from the grave like a Phoenix. 

Supercharged and ready for another chance to take over.

Love is within me,

Love is addicting,

Love is arising

Love is not timely

Love is forever

Love is together

Love is on another level

Love is altogether. 


Today is a transformational day. Great ideas have begun to take action in my life. I can feel it. I feel my dreams manifesting before me. The more knowledge I acquire of nutrition, the more i can carry out my energy to make it happen. I have had this plan in my mind for too long now. And I’m now investing a lot of time and money to research how “Food is Medicine”, since I began my journey to Vegan Wellness and Natural Healing last summer. As a new summer approaches, I look back to how much I have grown since then.

“The grass is greener where you water it.”

I’m SOOOO over cigarettes. Physically anyways. I don’t want to buy anymore. But, there’s a mental nagging voice in the back of my head that only utters the same sentence, “You need a cigarette. You need a cigarette. You need a cigarette. You need a cigarette. ”

I hear him all throughout the day. His voice can be as tiny as a mouse while I’m smoking or as grand as the state capitol when I feel like i actually do NEED a cigarette. I feel like I’m going YONKERS over cancer sticks!!

Lol, no but seriously, i love Tyler the Creator. (commercial break, watch the vid, kick back.)

. . . . .

(Oh hey, you’re back for more of my cigarette rant. cool)

I need to start catching when this voice gets louder and finding the trigger that activates it. When i finish eating something can be when the voice gets hella loud! I should, when I finish eating, think, “I NEED some water, something came over me!” In my best Kendrick Lamar voice. (lightbulb moment: I do need more water and thankhs kendrick. I need to Lust over Water.)

I need to focus on my Breaths and Green Juices and True Cleansing and Happyness of my inner self. These are what I truly NEED. This is what I need to focus on every day, not a damn cigarette. This cancels out room for growth. Toxins calcify; water flushes out. Let’s Lust over the routine of Flushing out the Toxins. I NEED SOME WATER; SOMETHING CAME OVER ME! ”

A week ago, I quit smoking cigarettes. And I found the best solution to getting rid of the urge was water. Plenty of it! From everywhere! From what I ate and consumed to the long, meditative showers of steamy meditation that take place every morning and evening. When breaking an addiction come into play, Water is the mighty sword that will break it.

Cleanse yourself. Internally at first. And know that it will take time to see a transformation. Especially if what you have been exposed to is toxicity. Remove it. Remove the toxicity from the body and lightness will flow like a river Oshun created herself.

Garden of Love

” Plant a seed of thought and nourish it for the next 30 days, and let the Universe work.”

Would you neglect the seeds that you planted in hopes of harvest and plentiful foods? No, you would nourish and attend to your garden. You would water it daily and make sure it gets all the sunlight and minerals and love that everything else that goes into growing a prospeous, healthy garden requires.

The same goes for yourself. We are in fact, just like a garden and need as much nourishment and attending to.

The path to self-care and self-love is a marvelous and destructive one, so be ready to explore all that your mind contains as it flushes out of you and molds you into a luscious Garden of Love.


As we explore the mind, body, and soul of our selves, we realize how important we are.

For myself, right now and always, but more so now than ever it is a peace of mind. To start with a peaceful mind, I must start from the Garden. This is the base, the foundation. This is what’s most important to sustain ANYTHING long lasting!

Positive Truths:

I affirm these statements to be true.

I am beautiful.

I am lovely.

I am strong.

I have a higher sense of purpose.

(sn about me: I love music while studying)


Sacred Woman Serenity Prayer

Sacred Woman in the making,

Sacred Woman Reawaken,

Sacred Spirit, hold me near,

Protect me from all harm and fear, beneath the Stones of life.

Direct my steps in the right way as I journey through this vision,

Sacred Spirt,

Surround me in your most absolute perfect light.

Annoint me in your Sacred Purity,


And divine insight

Bless me, truly bless me, as I share this Sacred Life.

Teach me, Sacred Spirit, to be in tune with the Universe

Teach me how to heal with my inner and outer elements of air, fire, water, and Earth. “