“When life gets better, its a little scary. I start to look for signs of another failing moment. Its almost an unconscious thing. And sometimes its not even a huge failure, but a setback. Losing a job, being overcome with depression, etc. Am I the only one that’s like this?
Maybe one day I’ll do better.”
This was a journal entry I wrote a few months back. I wasn’t working and was eating a bunch of junk food . I must admit, I felt pretty helpless. This was actually though, a more pleasant entry than other ones I read back on. Needless to say, I was unhappy in myself. I knew I needed a change, just wasn’t sure how or what needed to be changed. I just knew physically, mentally, and spiritually I was upset with me.